They get it.

You know, I never thought that the adoption process would be so hard. I knew that it could take a while to get placed with a baby but I didn't really understand the heartache, the emotional ups and downs and the effect it would have on my wonderful daughters. We have been very open with the girls about adoption, how it works, why we are doing it, where our baby will come from and even prepared them if their new brother or sister doesn't have the same skin color as them (we don't have any restriction on race). Adri and Myka get it, they understand the situation better than I think most grown ups do. It's great except for since they do understand so well, they also have some of the emotions that go with it. They tell people that my "tummy is broken so another mommy has to grow our baby in her tummy." They asked my sister who is pregnant, "Are you going to give us your baby? Is that our baby in your tummy?" They pray every night for our family to adopt soon. They have tried to "adopt" other kids. At a ward party they came up to me, so seriously, and told me to hurry up and go with them. They took me up to a little boy and told me that he didn't have a family and that we needed to adopt him and make him a part of our family. Let me tell you that that was fun explaining to his sister and mom. A few weeks ago I was having a hard day and Myka gave me a big hug and said "It takes a long time to adopt huh mom." After watching a movie where a little girl grew up without her parents Adri decided that Lucy was a good name to name our future baby. Lucy was the name of the character in the movie. Now both Myka and Adri like to try out different names for "our baby." You see they get it, they understand better than I ever thought that kids their age could and it makes it all the more heart wrenching. I never thought that the adoption process of waiting would affect our girls so much. They will be such amazing big sisters. I pray every day that they get that chance soon.